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"Let the little children come to me, and do not stop them; for it is to such as these that the kingdom of heaven belongs."        Matthew 19:14

...toobeautiful for this earth is a blog about my personal experience with recurrent miscarriage.  For me, oftentimes writing is therapy.  Losing three beloved babies through miscarriage is the absolute hardest thing I have ever endured in my whole life.  Sometimes my posts may be whiny, sad, or upbeat.  My emotions have been all over the place with regard to my miscarriages.  I have noticed that in everyday life, most of the time miscarriage is a silent suffering endured behind closed doors.  Certainly I can understand that, because it is not something that I always care to discuss myself.  However, I need some release of my emotions.  I feel alone in my own situation because I am not childless and yearning for a child to love.  I have four beautiful, living babies, all of which I am extremely thankful for to God.  However, my heart aches for the three beautiful souls I never got to hold, never got to kiss, never got to raise.  I am a Catholic mother, open to life, trying to live my life as God has planned it for me.  I want only to glorify Him; I trust in Him completely.


Here are my ramblings and raw emotion...